would someone help me find a good reason to live?

I bet you have a much large income than me!

Murder has been tried on me and now I cannot even work! Cannot drive either!

How about if you took up appreciating ALL that you do have?!

I am Not depressed!

DO you Believe in GOD? With GOD comes LOVE!

Or could you be an Atheist that cannot feel more than each of their own LUST? A life without meaning; because they have refused GOD!

If you do Beleive in GOD: then Pray to GOD for help!

God has not left you.

All of the serious writers on Christian spirituality talk about how God can hide himself and appear absent, holding back from giving us any easy consolation or quick answers to our prayers. That does not mean that he has gone, but that he wants us to strengthen us so we don't depend on pleasant feelings and quick easy answers, and so that we love God for who He is, not for what He gives.

In extreme cases, that sort of experience is called a 'dark night of the soul'. I do not think that you are going through one of those, but it may be that at a lesser level God wants you to deepen your faith and seek him more for his own sake and less as a short cut to a 'sucessful' life.

I have battled depression also and have found myself asking "why even try" before. But i promise, your life is worth living. It will get better. You should never stay with a job you are miserable at. It might be tough at first but look for something else. Everything will work itself out. Trust in God, and try. It will work out. Dont give up.

Your family and friends love & care about you. Help yourself and go get treatment sounds like your depressed. A anti depression meds can help a lot. Hope you feel better soon.

if you're under 39, consider joining the military. you just need a high school degree, no criminal background and no medical issues for starters, along with passing the ASVAB (standard high school level).

the military has hundreds of jobs from IT, to health care, transport and logistics, vehicle maintenance, air traffic control, security, construction, electrician, hvac, analysts, and others. they even have some business related jobs like finance and administrative roles.

while military life isn't for everyone, you get paid training, experience for four years (some jobs require six), and promotions with time in grade / time in service. with the training and experience you earn, you very well could find a similar job back in the civilian sector when your service is over. which will hopefully open the door for more opportunities and advancement.

the military can provide a source of hope, a feeling of accomplishment, service, while still earning money, life skills, and related job skills. plenty of people join for those reasons. if you have basic qualifications, go see a recruiter for the process and next steps, along with any other questions you may have.

kyle gott on YouTube has a ton of informational videos about the air force and military in general, and there are others too that have served or in service making videos. do some research.